sometimes i wonder,
why would something I cherish and love so much give me such disappointment, over and over again? I really care. That's why it hurts, it really does. =(
Maybe I'm again being paranoid and sensitive. em. I should be more positive. heh. I'm bubbly, just as everyone describes right? so smile. =)
anyway I've made the decision myself. I've not been home for so long, and I'll not be home frequent enough for my family during the 3-month holiday.. guess sometimes we just have to painfully sacrifice certain exuberant things in life for something more important that is often forgotten unintentionally. I've not shown them i love them and i care, so I shall not be selfish again this time.
I hope u guys have fun! =D

Hall stay application is such a mess this year. Alot of ppl, including myself, got 'thrown' out of hall and expected to stay in ridge view residences or pgp residences next year. omg. what is this man. I'm lucky because at least I've got Fwoc and Steppers to back me up. what about the others who really want to stay to commit and prove themselves to the hall? what can they do other than being helpless. They've put in their best effort to stay but the cut off point is so unexpectedly high this year. I will be so sad if they leave. really. I was pretty happy when ppl told me that i'm the least expected person for not being to stay, or they were so anxious and offered me help when I told them that I've gotta pack my stuff and move to rvr. thanks. I'm glad that my existence in hall is at least noted. U know I'm so easily contented that such simple gestures will already make my day so special.

FWOC old hat's supper is over. It's quite an enriching one. Being able to work together for the first time with the people that i'm going to spend the 3-month holiday with, it was great. I'm sure we'll get along fine together, cuz we hold the same passion and the same aim. jia you together k. oh yea. I wanted to say, I am not the person many ppl thought i was. I may be loud, but I don't like to be the center of attraction. Because I think to shine under the limelight u need to be extraordinary, u need to be outstanding, u need have some sort of social prestige. but I'm not. I wanna learn! time to speak up audaciously with more confidence in public,girl. Whats the use of thinking so much when u can't even speak up for ur own point of view.

Sem2 is coming to an end in a blink of an eye. So many things happened, and so many things I'd gone through, in this relatively short period of time. Gonna review on what I've gained and how much I've grown after the exams. In the mean time I just want to sit down and study. I seriously seriously need to catch up. and yeah, fix my terribly screwed up bio-clock.

yay. I'm going home tomorrow. =)

nites ppl.

Spent a wonderful afternoon with cousin uncle and auntie today.

Tasted different types of freshly brewed beer. Had good food. Had an enjoyable K-singing session. Had lotsa laughters. Had my favourite Ben&Jerry's ice-cream with brownies. Took pictures of unglamness and real happiness.

Just felt so comfortable being with them. Love the cozy and cheery feeling. *hugz*
Thanks for forking out time for me and made my day. =)

and thanks to u and u. For listening and sharing thoughts. That added extra spice to my already beautiful day.

If i were to rank my day with number of stars from 1 to 10...
I'll rank it with 9 stars.

It will be ranked 10, if only u were here. I miss u. =)

some ppl
they've reached the age of 20
still acting like a kid
like they're the king
always waiting to be pleased

dream on man.
as if I care.

oh well, maybe i did. but not anymore.

To chiayi: been talking to u alot recently! It feels so good to be able to catch up again, though it's only thru msn and webcam =D thanks for casting a smile on me with ur after-shaved clean look when i was really stressed out. *hugz teddy bear*

To tzeying mami: can't wait to see u soon. miss ur singing and the bed time story session. sorry if i always not on the pc when u text me on msn. and sorry if i always disappoint u on stuff like not be able to meet up and hear u on the radio. but i love u k? =)

To ahseng: though u always send me silly stuff thru msn, knowing that u really miss me brings warmth to my heart. Thanks for all the truthful comments u posted on my friendster. Will see u soon alright. take care!

To jiahui: thanks for holding firm on insisting us to participate in the group stunt. It seems that we girls are progressing fine and we'll make KR Steppers proud k. yay we're in cheerobics too!

To all team stunts steppers: Give it all out k guys! u guys are awesome!

To bestie,shiqi,shimin,xinyi: u girls r the sweetest bunch on earth. Love working together with u girls. Though it's tough,let us get it over and done with our very best k. we can do it! Have faith.

To kim: though both of us hav been so busy with our own stuffs, u know i love u. and i'm always here when u need someone to listen okay? Hope u're coping fine with ur school work. i know u'll do fine. let's jiayou together k?

To khailut: thanks for all the lame jokes that make me laugh like a mad woman. thanks for always being there to listen to my nonsense. and yeah, i know it's really tiring for u to be the middle man, but i'm sorry k i'll handle better next time =P

To fish: i'm not mad. and we're still the best of friends k? thanks for all the efforts done and most importantly, i know u care. STOP SKIPPING LESSONS! (and exams too!)

To Pudding: i miss u baby! stop running out of house and let daddy chase u like crazy k! notty girl! and eat more! dun be picky! listen to mom and dun always make noise wanting to get into the house!

To you: wish u were here. enough said.

and last but not least,
To myself: Hang in there! stay strong!

No u're not going.

No u're not going.

Hey u're going!

really?

YES i'm going! =D

YES you are! =)

=D

sorry u're not going..

why?

...

=(

=(


mmm. I'm alright. and i'm not lying. I'm alright. =)
Thanks capt. love u loads.

I realized my life is boring.

I don't club. I don't party and get drunk. I don't shop till i drop. and I don't dye my hair into blond.

But you say different people lead different ways of living. I do cheerleading, I do A cappella, I visit the SPCA and talk to the stray dogs and cats, which most people don't usually do.

Yet, I guess I'd love to go clubbing with you. I'd love to get more than tipsy and experience a hang over the next day. I'd love to shop till I spend the last penny in my purse . I'd love to dye my hair into different hue, one day. One day.

heyyyyyyyyyy i'm suppose to be studying!!!!!!! but i'm not. been wasting my time on the net and then finally realized: what have i been doing in the past few hours?!

test tomorrow and i'm not done yet! another one on thurs and i barely even started.

what's with me man. bring back the jianie in sem1 to me. haha.
This is not even funny. oh i'm so screwed now. =(


Give me a hug. anyone?