sometimes i wonder,
why would something I cherish and love so much give me such disappointment, over and over again? I really care. That's why it hurts, it really does. =(
Maybe I'm again being paranoid and sensitive. em. I should be more positive. heh. I'm bubbly, just as everyone describes right? so smile. =)
anyway I've made the decision myself. I've not been home for so long, and I'll not be home frequent enough for my family during the 3-month holiday.. guess sometimes we just have to painfully sacrifice certain exuberant things in life for something more important that is often forgotten unintentionally. I've not shown them i love them and i care, so I shall not be selfish again this time.
I hope u guys have fun! =D

Hall stay application is such a mess this year. Alot of ppl, including myself, got 'thrown' out of hall and expected to stay in ridge view residences or pgp residences next year. omg. what is this man. I'm lucky because at least I've got Fwoc and Steppers to back me up. what about the others who really want to stay to commit and prove themselves to the hall? what can they do other than being helpless. They've put in their best effort to stay but the cut off point is so unexpectedly high this year. I will be so sad if they leave. really. I was pretty happy when ppl told me that i'm the least expected person for not being to stay, or they were so anxious and offered me help when I told them that I've gotta pack my stuff and move to rvr. thanks. I'm glad that my existence in hall is at least noted. U know I'm so easily contented that such simple gestures will already make my day so special.

FWOC old hat's supper is over. It's quite an enriching one. Being able to work together for the first time with the people that i'm going to spend the 3-month holiday with, it was great. I'm sure we'll get along fine together, cuz we hold the same passion and the same aim. jia you together k. oh yea. I wanted to say, I am not the person many ppl thought i was. I may be loud, but I don't like to be the center of attraction. Because I think to shine under the limelight u need to be extraordinary, u need to be outstanding, u need have some sort of social prestige. but I'm not. I wanna learn! time to speak up audaciously with more confidence in public,girl. Whats the use of thinking so much when u can't even speak up for ur own point of view.

Sem2 is coming to an end in a blink of an eye. So many things happened, and so many things I'd gone through, in this relatively short period of time. Gonna review on what I've gained and how much I've grown after the exams. In the mean time I just want to sit down and study. I seriously seriously need to catch up. and yeah, fix my terribly screwed up bio-clock.

yay. I'm going home tomorrow. =)

nites ppl.