the giant xmas tree in vivo has already been set up even though it is still about 2 months + to xmas! and i'm already in my xmassie groovy mood! (: can't wait til exams are over and we can start carolling soon!



weather's turning cold in baby's place. love him in his winter clothing! x









I was there for dinner with them! :p

as much as i wanna write down what exactly i'm feeling inside.. i try so hard to figure out whats seriously wrong with me.

why so easily affected?
do i really care that much?
why care since nobody cares.

i should really really stop visiting that place. the place that has been giving me so much emotion stir-ups and sad to say, mostly unhappiness. the place that has been perpetually telling me how lousy i am and how unappreciated i am.

i still think i'm not THAT lousy though.
just that i'm always not given a chance.

sigh. sigh.

why ah why.

why ah why.

=(

A thought slipped my mind.
then immediately another though shoot back.
are you crazy????

man. i'm so greedy i always want to do everything. EVERYTHING that i think i can do, i want to do. doing for the sake of self-satisfaction? or for the sake of proving my capability? i don't know. But i know whats happiness like when i'm doing certain things. that kind of throbbing excitement that passionately grows within me while indulging in things that i like.
phew. now i realized how much i actually missed flying. and how much i actually LOVED flying.

so what about swallowing my words about prioritizing Inspire now?
i don't know. but the group doesn't give me much motivation, like seriously. what are we suppose to do. guess again i won't be able to sing more as i wished this year. things are not going the way i thought they are. Maybe the best place for me will still be the music cafe. singing chinese pop that i'm comfortable with.
anyway, today was a pretty fulfilling day i suppose. Did several successful liberty haha after such a long longgggg hibernation yessss at least i'm not rusty=p
toe pitch was fun. thanks to weili and rambutan =p

oh ohhh and we had birthday celebration for wern mama with krishnan and annie.
it has been quite some time since the 3 of us gathered together! still loveeeeee you girls! (:

i tired liao. i go sleep. byebye ppl! (:

first, everything is drawn out in pencil.


trace everything out with black ink pen.


Erase off pencil mark.


nice? but not done yet! =)


colouring! back to primary school =D


niceeeee i like~~

love you baby (:

performance tomorrow.

just wanna say, it has been fun training with u guys (:
tho not stunting at all this time, but for once i'm a dancer! lol full out hip hop dancer dun play play!
gonna miss spending time together in the dance studio babes!
let's rock the theater tomorrow!W

W-I-L-D Wild cats!!!!

Projects and assignments come in by batch this semester.
I have no idea why. But i seriously seriously thought life would be easier if they give me midterms. I'm sick of struggling in the midst of deadlines. i wanna go out.

anyway. today was a good day to me, at first. cuz my law assignment has got good remarks. then got bothered by this stupid confusion about whats right and whats wrong with this minor part of my project. the bad thing is, it was already handed in. HAHA. die. too late too late.
so my moodswing comes. strikes like the relentless storm as if nobody's business. hurhur. whats new man. it always happens.
i feel like going out for a walk. to the 7-11 out there to get myself a B&J chocolate fudge heaven. but i got no money. and i don't wanna use my nets. oh my wallet is empty. pathetically filled with a few coins that is. lol.
i wanna go shopping. but i have training tomorrow. what time will it end i don't know. i wan more shoes bags and clothes. my wardrobe is still too empty =(
We're performing for highschool musical3 Asia premier on sunday. am i suppose to feel extra excited for it? how come i don't. how ah how ah. shit. nvm. but we'll get to watch for free! yesssss. i love free stuff. i'm so auntie. how how how.

ok lar should resume studying. i thought ytd was productive. what m i doing now. aiyer. angsty lah. sien. i think i'm super stressed with my CAP this sem. probably feel remorseful of my slackness last sem. big big mistake.
i wanna go SEP. AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
let me go. please please pleaseeeeeeeeeeee nobody needs it more than i do. haha =p

this is an aimless entry. sorry if i've wasted ur time.
have a nice day! =))